Fading right next to.

I faltered away,
as if I needed no one.
But you realized you needed me.
I died and you wouldn't let me.
And I wished you didn't die for me.
But I dragged you down.

No one needed such.

I wasn't conscious.
But I knew I needed you,
And I tried, and tried,
and tried.
You wouldn't let me die.
I wanted to die alone.

No one needed such.

So you looked after me,
in the limits of limbo,
between heaven and hell;
I ruined it. I took you to my
hell.
And I wished you were far away
so I could fight my demons alone.
But you insisted.

You didn't need such.

I fell, my legs aching,
but your heart was aching far more.
And the way back hurt like it always does,
whenever I don't have you close
and I scare you,
and I frighten you,
and you worry about me.

I'm sorry. No one needs such.

My lucidity came back hours later.
Now I'm wondering the magnitude
of things lost
of things broken
of things I have broken.

You didn't need such.
I'll pay for my sins.
I'll pay for what I have done.

No one needed such.
But, now, I deserve this.

I deserve it.
No one, but me, needs such.